I read an article recently which was scripted by a gentleman in 2002. He had documented his experiences with regard to GRE and had provided good tips on tackling quantitative and verbal sections! I suddenly felt that I have not put down anything of this sort and as my blogging has slowly morphed into a passion, I finally decided it just had to be done! To be honest, I don’t feel my performance was any good in the actual test but I have some very interesting musings from the entire GRE and application episodes and just feel I owe my readers a peek into the same! So here I am rambling again probably as ambiguous as always and would sincerely ask you to forgive me if my language or thoughts get blurred in the process.
First, the run-up to the actual exam!
I still remember me sitting one fine morning in my company library and reading a petrochemical journal. It was a lazy day (so lazy that I had to run out on my shift in-charge during a morning shift to the library…
…). I was half expecting to simply fall asleep, but alas, I never knew it could get so very impossible (ask my friends and they would vouch that this incident has to be an outright lie). Anyhow….after this realization dawned upon me that it is not just a one-off incident and that I was somehow hooked upon petroleum and petrochemicals like never before, that I realised that this was something I had wished to do since my engineering days! My penchant for oil dates back to my 3rd year in engineering and this was simply a reincarnation of sorts! Thus deciding to try and do something rather than waste a few more years in my endless shift duties and panel operations, I decided to; guess what; yes, call up my best friend!!!! As destiny would have it, he too was somehow hooked on to the idea of petroleum engineering thanks to a few shell publications and his not so regular internet trysts! It was like a distant light partly hidden by fog suddenly becoming all too apparent and clear. I realized that there is surely a future, possibly a very bright future in Petroleum engineering. But I am just too vacillating a being to rest at that. On the solemn urgings of few of my friends who thought I was destined to be a manager in my own right, I decided to give MBA a serious look! I cooked up plans of joining some coaching institute and even thought of dropping the idea of GRE completely (and this was one of the reasons why I was unable to put in consistent effort into test preparations!!). But then one fine day, as destiny would have it, I found myself back in the library with another petroleum journal in my hands….! And believe it or not, this time I did drop off for good, but I had a weird dream, of a kind I have never ever had before! I saw myself on top of a tanker ship directing an emptying operation! Again I had a wild hunch then that this had something to do with my college days (I had done some slight research on tanker operations). So was back with a brand new reckoning! The only issue; the only dilemma I faced was that I just had a month to go for my standard tests (which were scheduled for 3rd and 6th October….dates that are going to be etched in my memory forever!!). At this stage I got tremendous help from a few of my friends who themselves probably have no idea that they actually helped me….
…. Anyhow, being completely honest, my lousy GRE preparation included 20 days of Big book, 10 days of Kaplan + ARCO essays and 7 days of Barron’s dappled with intermittent bouts of internet fever when I would lock myself up with my computer for hours on end just to watch movies (and skip meals in the process). I am sure my friends from my old company would vouch for the same any day.
Anyhow, I am sure you would appreciate what my mental state would have been when I actually went for the test on D-day. I had my GRE on 3rd October and to be honest, I was just too excited to feel any nervousness!!! I still marvel at how such a paramount change is possible for somebody like me who used to fret like a nervous chicken in semester examinations! I still remember the moment when I decided on reporting my scores and I was just too delighted with the scores the screen showed. It was as if I had finally come through clean (with admittedly very little effort and toil…….my mistake!).
Now at this stage when I am dead sure that you are probably nodding off to sleep reading all this boring stuff about a boring man and his boring life, I would add in some excitement for the aspirants! There are a few valuable lessons out of my entire experience. When I was in college I tried for an MBA but was unable to secure a good admit. I feel it was my fickle mind at fault. But then, I can’t keep blaming my mind for my decisions right. After all it is my own mind and thus I have to own upto my actions! To be honest, I have always faced bouts of confusion in handsome amounts! It has been the very first time in my life that I have been able to decide on something and see it to completion (again a big HOPEFULLY here as it is still an unfinished business!). When I finally realized that it had to be a PhD and nothing else for me, I got a shock of sorts. I will tell you know as to why so…
I was completely unprepared for GRE and I just had a month to go! I knew that I could get a score of 1200+ without any issues. But the trouble was I was sure that would not serve my purpose (at this point I feel even 1600 would have not!!!). So I had the uphill (I felt that way at that point) task of preparing verbal which I was sure of goofing up otherwise! I was very confident with my quantitative section. I was consistently getting 800 in Big Book tests. But verbal was a different ball game altogether! Finally the 27 tests from Big Book did pay off. My scores increased from 1200’s to 1400’s in 15 days flat. I felt a sense of relief but at about the same time I realized that I had not touched the AWA section at all! To be honest, I have always liked writing but I took it up seriously! It was another good friend who made me realize that a little preparation for essays would do me no harm! Thus I decided to open a book (ARCO essay) which had been sitting in pristine condition in my book shelf for more than 5 months. My essay preparation was parallel to my night shifts at the plant and Kaplan exercises as well! I tried to keep tabs over what I was actually doing but it was getting kind of hazy and I decided to go with the flow! My final few power-prep tests got me 1460 and 1430 respectively. I remember feeling a weird sensation of confidence mixed with fear! Anyhow coming to more important issue, I feel Big Book has had a tremendous impact on my results (I do concede that my scores were not that good and therefore have taken care not to mention the same in my posts!). I was delighted a month later to learn about my 5.5 in AWA. I felt that somehow I had been a tad lucky with the scarce preparation which I had! Also, I have come to believe that a good preparation might not necessarily mean a lengthy one. My friend scored a 1470 with a month’s preparation as well! So I am certain it is just a matter of finding your own pace and fitting in just right – so to speak!!
I must concede that I was overly delighted when I came out of the prometric centre. It was mainly because I had got a good score and somehow got this feeling that I was doing the right thing. At this point though, I must say I am very nervous. In fact I have had bouts of irritation, anger, dejection and even stress related to anxiety! I feel that my chances of getting good admissions are getting slimmer by the day and I have absolutely no idea why I feel this way! Anyhow I don’t want to turn this blog into a repertoire of a person suffering from chronic depression! My reason for blogging is to get out of any depression or compulsive behaviour and I intend on keeping it that way. So, I would end this post at this stage and would continue soon with a description of my application days and associated issues which I faced! I hope the future posts in this series are more interesting and more informative! I also urge my readers to ask any queries, doubts or issues they might have.
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